My dog and I had a terrible day today, he was suffering from bloat, a life threatening condition. I had him at the vet all day and when they closed I took him to an emergency vet which was extremely overpriced and wanted $6000 down to do his surgery! After hours clinic or not that is insane, and I could not afford it. Instead I begged them to keep him comfortable and sedated through the night and keep an eye on him and I will return for him by 8am so I'm not charged for another day. If he makes it through the night I have to find a new vet asap and transfer him there (myself) and have his surgey done. If you can help at all, please do so. Information on funding for emergency situations with pets or actual funds would be so greatly appreciated. Lars is my child, I can't bear to lose him,if you know me you know that is true. I feel so helpless. xoxo

much to say. Don't want to leave, cant stay. So alone, maybe forever. Who cares- I miss my friends. We will all talk soon. Much love.   *P.s.= My horoscopes and whatnot all said I'd find love here.....sooooo not true, I want hugs and kisses right NOW!!!!!!! Help, please? *

Hop a Plane • | by Tegan & Sara
I took the train back
Back to where I came from
I took it all alone it’s been so long I know
I'magine me there my heart asleep with no air
Begging “ocean please, help me drown these memories”

All I need to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine

I’m moving east there’s somewhere far away from
The sight of my hands the sight of me not moving
You can’t just hop a plane and come and visit me again
I claim it’s in my head and I regret offering

All I need to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine
All I want to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine

You take a second take a second take a year take a year
You took me out and took me in and told me all of this
And then you take a moment take a moment take a year take a year
You help me out I listen in you taught me all of this and then

All I want to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine
All I want to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine
All I need to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine
All I want to hear is that you’re not mine you’re not mine




Are You Ten Years Ago • | by Tegan & Sara
If you're taken I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles

I collapse
I might stay out longer than I left the light on for you
Then if you show, you show
If you show, you show
When I feel like this
When I get so into myself
I lose track of where I'm going and lose track of how to get going again
I feel myself slowing down
Feel myself turning around
Is this taken?
When I feel like this
When I get so sick of myself
Where are you going now without me
And not knowing then, that we're slowing down
You've gotta turn that around
And tell me that I'm taken, tell me if I'm yours
You collapse
The pressure of this life is so
You can't be held accountable
If you go, you go
If you go, you go
When you act like this
When you get so sick, of yourself
The whole world falls away and since I feel
Like I have only missed the feeling that I'm here again
The feeling that I'm clear again
I'm not taken
When you act like this
When you get so into yourself
I lose sight of common goals
And letting go so I can be all alone
Feel myself, going slow
Feel myself, letting go
Not taken, not feeling like I'm yours

I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles
I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles

I collapse
This life looks like a sentence, though
A constant game of falling short
If you know, you know
If you know, you know
When I feel like this
When I'm just so sick of feeling less than perfect
Is it right for me
I never fight to see if coming clean would get to me
I feel myself, holding back
I feel the pressure, it's finally back
I'm taken
When you feel like this
When you saw it call come crashing down
Subtle but not underground
I was there
I saw the signs, I saw unfair
And so I write to you through other means
I let myself finally feel taken
Like I was yours

If you're taken I am yours
I'm up and doing circles

I'm taken, I am yours
I'm up and doing circles

I collapse
I collapse
I collapse

Relief Next to Me • | by Tegan & Sara
I miss you now
I guess like I should have missed you then
My body moves
Like curtains waving in and out of wind, in and out of windows
I can't untangle, I can't untangle
What I feel and what would matter most
I can't get close and I, I can't get close
And now there's just no point, in reaching out for me
In the dark, I'm just no good at giving relief
In the dark, it won't be easy to find relief
And I'm not proud that nothing will seem easy about me
But I promise this
I won't go my whole life telling you I don't need
But I promise this
I won't go my whole life telling you I don't need
I'll tell you now
I guess like I should have told you then
The thunder moves like damn drawers slamming in my frame
Slamming in my framework
I can't untangle, I can't untangle
What I know and what should matter most
I can't get close and I, I can't get close
And now there's just no point, in reaching out for you
In the dark, I'm just no good at giving relief
In the dark, it won't be easy to find relief
And I'm not proud that nothing will seem easy about me
But I promise this
I won't go my whole life telling you I don't need



• The Con • | by Tegan & Sara
I listened in
Yes I'm guilty of this you should know this
I broke down and wrote you back before you had a chance to
Forget forgotten
I am moving past this giving notice
I have to go
Yes I know the feeling, know you're leaving
Calm down, I'm calling you to say
I'm capsized, staring on the edge of safe
Calm down, I'm calling back to say
I'm home now
I'm coming around, I'm coming around
Nobody like to but I really like to cry
Nobody likes me
Maybe if I cry
Spelled out your name and lists the reasons
Pain of heart
Don't call me back
I imagine you when I was distant
Non-insistent
I follow suit and layed out on my back
Imagine that
A million hours left to think of you and think of that
Calm down, I'm calling you to say
I'm capsized, staring on the edge of safe
Calm down, I'm calling back to say
I'm home now
I'm coming around, I'm coming around
Nobody like to but I really like to cry
Nobody likes me
Encircle me, I need to be, taken down
Nobody like to but I really like to cry
Nobody likes me
Maybe if I cry
Nobody
Encircle me, I need to be, taken down

001. Real name → Soph
003. Status → Single
004. Zodiac sign → Sagittarius
005. Male or female → Female
006. Elementary → Many
008. Highschool → Tuscola
010. Hair color → Black
011. Long or short → Hawkett
015. Are you health freak → Sometimes
016. Height → 5'6"
017. Do you have a crush on someone→ Every day
018. Do you like yourself → More and more everyday.
019. Piercings → 13
020. Tattoos → 7
021. Righty or lefty → Righty

FIRSTS :

022. First surgery → Stitches
023. First piercing → Ears
024. First friend → Joanna
025. First award → Spelling bee
026. First sport you joined → Gymnastics
027. First pet → Onyx the cat
028. First vacation → Peoria
029. First concert →Random punk shows or Smashing Pumpkins
030. First crush → Abra

CURRENTLY :

049. Eating → Nada
050. Drinking → Booze
052. I'm about to -- Go outside with my poor lil' siddy dog.
053. Listening to → John from Cincinatti.
055. Waiting for ---> My friend to get off work.

YOUR FUTURE :

058. Want kids →I dont know
059. Want to get married → Not sure, I have a hard time finding love.
060. Careers in mind? → Music production and owning a venue. Possibly a punk rock salon.

WHICH IS BETTER WITH THE PEOPLE THAT YOU ARE ATTRACTED TO?

068. Lips or eyes → Eyes
069. Hugs or kisses → Both
070. Shorter or taller → Taller
072. Romantic or spontaneous → Spontaneous
073. Nice stomach or nice arms → I dont care
074. Sensitive or loud → Both
075. Hook-up or relationship → Relationship and hopefully love.
077. Trouble maker or hesitant troublemaker → Hesitant

HAVE YOU EVER :

078. Kissed a stranger → No
079. Drank bubbles → Probably
080. Lost glasses/contacts → No
081. Ran away from home - Yeah
084. Broken somone's heart → Yeah
085. Been arrested → No
086. Turned someone down → Yes
087. Cried when someone died → Yes
088. Liked a friend → Duh, I like all of my friends or we wouldnt be friends!!!!!!!!

DO YOU BELIEVE IN:

089. Yourself → Yes.
090. Miracles → Maybe
091. Love at first sight→ I felt like that once.
092. Heaven → ?
093. Santa clause → nah
094. Sex on the first date → ?
095. Kiss on the first date→ yeah
096. Angels → The ones that know me best

ANSWER TRUTHFULLY :

097. Is there one person you want to be with right now
Always

098. Had more than one boyfriend/girlfriend at one time?
No